Let The Pictures Talk Instead Of Me .

~ " Ära Unusta , Sa Ei Ole üksi ! " < every single time , when i feel lonely , and totally depressed , i look at this message , and smile . It kinda gives me strength to carry on , even i know it was sent a long time ago , but im kinda still obsessed with it. ~








~ Yeah , it's like : * UMN-FUCK-THE-WORLD-IM-FUCKING-OVER-YOU-I-DON'T-NEED-YOU-MAYBE-I-DON'T-WANT-YOU-ANYMORE-I-FUCKING-HATE-YOU-IM-FUCKING-TIRED-OF-CRYING-AND-NOW-IT'S-GONNA-STOP-..-RIGHT-NOW ! * And what happens next ?
* PIIIIIPIIIIIP , hey ! wanna watch a movie ? *
* .. OOOOHFUUUUCK ! and im in the beginning , again * ~






~ Yeah , i wonder that all the time . But .. it hasn't ever crossed my mind to ask
'what are you thinking ? ' - I should do that sometimes . ~






~ Cuz ' , sometimes i feel like we are friends , and sometimes it's like we are really good friends , and sometimes , we are more than friends , kinda like .. couple , and sometimes , i feel like im total stranger to you and you don't know me at all ? So please , tell me what you want and .. why are you doing like this ? You can't keep fucking with someone's feelings, just cuz' you are unsure of yours , .. cuz there's a risk , that i may fall for you really really hard . ~





~ Yeah , first we were just chillin' and hanging out, then we became friends , then good friends , then really good friends , then like OMG-HOW-THE-FUCK-HAVE-I-LIVED-BEFORE-YOU-WALKED-INTO-MY-LIFE , then we became more than friends , kinda like sexpartners ( haaha . ) , and then .. it kinda went down , it just didn't last , and now , im so fucking afraid of losing you , even you are not mine ? ~




~ YEAH , it's kinda .. full of shit right now . These weird feelings , and all the things i been through , and all the scars are open right now . So .. yeah , it's just not good place to be . ~






~ That's so true , it's like you are the only one , who can make me so .. weirdly emotional . That ALL the feelings together , are like .. coming out of me , at the same time . And when you say that you love me , and hold my hand , it's like .. this is the only place i wanna be . o.o It's like umn .. that me and you together , nothing is better . And guess what , after all we've been through , all the lovesongs make sense now . And that's fucking scary . O_O ~







~ And it's just freakin' me out , cuz ' all the lovesongs make sense now . I didn't get them , or , i mean , i understood , yes , but i didn't know how that FEELS and .. i just didn't get it , until i met you . Then all suddenly .. came clear , i know exactly what the song is all about . Understanding lovesongs , is like superpower . love . ~







~ I miss everything about you . Your smile , your eyes , your laugh , the way you hold me . I miss EVERY SINGLE THING about you . And that's just horrible feeling' , to know that you don't miss me as much as i do . How i just think everyday about 2 hours , how would i do this and that with you , how i would say this to you , and how i would hug you . And it's just killing me . Cuz i just want to see you . Only Thing I Want Right Now . ~




THANKS . PEACE OUT !